a ghost's annual reflection, v2025

well, hello there. i... didn't expect for someone to actually come and visit me in here.

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it's rather lonely here in the afterlife, you know? the darkness gets inside your head before you pull yourself out.

...that's not why you're here though, right? Not that I mind... come, sit next to me as I ramble. The music should be playing in the corner, but if not, just press the pause/play button again until it does play.

2025, what a year it's been, huh? It's honestly a bit bitter for me to look back, since just like the year before, we've had our biggest ups and downs. Arguably, this year has some of my highest highs ever.
shocking, I know.

For the 3 years I've been on DA, posting a few TF stories across the years... this year has had the most ever, and not only that? I actually got a lot of art done, even if its just doodles. I'm proud of myself for that.

not to mention... this is the first year that I was actually able to connect with other tf fans and become friends- nay, the closest friends I could've ever asked for. Even if my paranoia gets to me hard, I can still rely on them to be there to be a light in the darkness, especially one of them...
Every time she's awake, my gloomy sky gets so much more brighter. She quite literally is the Sun in my sky, and I never thought I'd be in a queerplatonic relationship ever, but... here we are!!! If you're reading this hun, I love you tons :rofilove:

And to think, I probably wouldn't have been here if it weren't for my partner greeting me a Happy Birthday on one of my darkest birthdays ever (even though i hung out with 2 irls). The voices have a way of grasping at strings and pulling as hard as they can, but the fact that one little birthday greeting has domino-effected its way into me being in a cozy friend group is... yeah, still quite hard to believe, but it happened.

I know it's basically been radio silence on my end until recently, when i started to become more active on bsky and now twitter. I'm terribly sorry for that, but, now that I actually have the energy and lovely friends to cheer me on... I think next year will have a lot more in store for my works.

I hope you, the one reading this, is able to be with me as the year comes to an end. Whether it be literally if you're my close friends, or spiritually, even if you're just a casual watcher of mine. Please, keep your head up and let the melancholia ease away for now as 2026 comes ever so closer.

Now, I think that's enough of my rambling for today, huh?

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thank you so much, to anyone reading this, for your time.

thank you especially to my closest of friends. though we've only met for half a year (or less, even...) the thought that someone out there cares for me, ranging from a few miles away to even from across the world... it's comforting. you guys made this year incredible.

and here's to an amazing 2026.